Memories

Yesterday I had a chance to remember my feelings as if I were a child again. I went to dentist to fix one of my teeth. I'm terribly afraid of stomatologists, it has been my fear since I was a child. So, yesterday I had to feel myself a 5-years old girl sitting in the huge chair of the dentist, who was searching for something bad in her mouth with a sloppy smile, which I didn't like at all. I was defeated, it was a moment of absolute feebleness and fear. I was of afraid of pain and complications. It's very hard emotionally to trust your life and health to a person you don't know or even fear (in my case). I was shocked and wanted to cry, but I didn't, my mind told me that I was already adult enough and I shouldn't cry. So my reason me amordazó (shuted me up) and I went home sin dejar caer ninguna gota de lágrima.