To face the question

I suppose that everyone usually thinks about some questions to be asked. We pretend the situation, possible answer, the importance of the question, I hope you understand what I'm trying to say. For example, almost every girl wants to be asked to get married, and she tries to imagine the situation and her feelings about it. There are many questions for us to be asked and answered, everyone waits for his special one. 

Personally, I value the role of questions in our life, it's very helpful to ask yourself about everything, it helps you to face the problem, but I think you need a talent to ask the right question. Not every person can ask himself "Am I happy?", questions help us to face the truth, if we are honest with ourselves. 

One morning I was sitting next to my good friend and she asked me why I'm so fascinated about traveling, what it is for me. Here it was! It was the question I also wanted to face,I've been pretending the situation and my feelings about the question, I've been thinking about it for so long, that even forgot the appropriate answer. So, after some seconds of amazement from facing the question, I tried to answer, first of all to myself.

What does traveling means to me? It's a searching. It's a searching almost for everything: new people, new places, new arts, new buildings, new cities and countries. It's some kind of test which can show me and everyone how far I can get. Traveling is a process of discovery, it's life in its sense. For me, life is a process, but here in Saint-Petersburg I can't truly day that I'm moving and developing, here life is very static, but during a journey it stops being static, it turns into a process, activity. Life during a journey, it's life itself.

Why I'm not traveling now? First of all, I'm only 19 years old and I don't earn money to be independent, my parents have three kinds and it's unfair and very expensive to travel all the time using their money. Secondly, I'm still a student and just can't pack up my things and go away for searching life, I'm not free to abandon everything I have now. Thirdly, to say the truth, I'm not sure that now I'm ready to do this, I need more confidence to go away for traveling.

When will I start to travel and where will I go? Europe! Definitely, Europe! The place I adore! I know, yep, I just simply know that I must visit Europe and start my journey from there. When? I hope to study in Europe in 2 years when I get my bachelor. This is one of the reasons for learning languages. I'm really afraid of everything that can stop me, for example, a job, my family, or boyfriend whom I won't want to abandon. We shall see! Now I have an aim and a dream to travel, to meet the life and not to let my lifeline go.

So, I tried to face some of the questions, I'm sure in my answers and I think, that it's time to move on, trying to make my aim reality... but now it's time for going to Uni, see you later, my dearest questions!